It wasn't related to anything I said, but this weekend a friend of mine suggested I should go onto match.com to find a boyfriend. She's a bit of a serial boyfriender and I think it mainly came up because she's between boyfriends (well, as near as makes no odds) and considered it. And she knows someone that's done it.

There's part of me that thinks that would actually be quite handy for going out to the cinema and theatre more (but not to restaurants, that's too stressful) and I've only ever been on one date, I think. Which is one more than she has.

And there's part of me that wonders what (if anything) I'm missing by not having a boyfriend. I've never had a serious boyfriend - I've never felt the need, can never really be bothered and I'm not sure they're worth the effort anyway.

The practical part of me can't work out when I'd have the time to fit one in anyway, since I can quite easily eliminate every day of the week and most weekends and boyfriends tend to want to see you more often than once a month. Even once a week would be a struggle.

The last part of me thinks that would be horribly grown up and I keep doing grown up things. I'm planning to buy a car this year and I want to buy a house in the future (entirely because I don't want to have to move again and I want to be able to put up shelves and not have to cook on electric cookers) and that's all very grown up. I used to think when I was little that 30 was grown up and now I'm worried that I'm right. (not that you can't be childish too, as the Doctor says) but I don't think I want to be grown up and boring. I just don't know how much I can stop myself.