I am my own worst enemy when it comes to resting. I've never been very good at being ill because there are always things I need to do. Plus I'm rarely so ill that I don't eat, so I have to get up to cook anyway.

But it's why I'm constantly feeling like I'm not getting things done: I feel pressure to do things. And I'm the person putting pressure on myself, not other people. So I have Rotaract things to do and fic to write and RP tags to do and I even put pressure on myself to get TV programmes watched.

The trouble is that I have the idea that I get things done, then I can stop and do what I want to do. Except that because I need more sleep and have to stop to rest, I don't get as much done. And while I'm resting I worry about how much I need to do, and then try and work it out so I do things like cleaning & baking while I'm up, and then when I need a lie down I can do things on the computer.

I almost need to have less to do, but then I wouldn't know what to do with myself. If I didn't have Rotaract and fic writing and RPing I wouldn't know what to do with myself. I don't think I'd last a week before I was bored.

But this is who I am, I don't know how to be relaxed and non-pressured. On the plus side, my mum has the same views on getting things done and then resting, and I get my control-freakish tendencies from my dad, so I can just blame it all on my genes...

2 Responses to “Doing things”

Copper Says:
Thursday 3rd February 2011 at 6:27 pm

I found the last line of this post funny but your father didn't LOL

Nic Says:
February 6th, 2011 at 4:30 pm

Funny that

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