Trying to decide whether to go travelling now! It was kind of something someone said today and what was said at my appraisal about it, and also what someone mentioned on one of my mailing lists. If I could go into IT in the same company, then it would be kind of stupid to leave it all behind now. I think the trouble is that if I have a good day at work and feel more included, then I think I don't want to leave, but if I have a bad day and feel left out, I desperately want to leave. Same with at home really, I think. I think I'll have to see how it goes and whether I last through the cold in the winter this year, because that's when I felt worst last year.

Really must work on my essay for Jack O'Neill studies and write some e-mails. Perhaps I'll have an evening of doing that and playing with my modem tomorrow night, as it refused to work in the top slot last night, which is not good. Didn't leave work till 10 past 6, so couldn't really have made it to Tae Kwon Do even if I wanted to.

I so want Sikozu's hair! And clothes. And a body to go in them. But I really want to dye my hair that colour, and I wish it was long and curly like that (and manageable, obviously).

Calming down a bit now. I was in a state of shock over tonights Bill. In my defence it was very dramatic. I felt tired before the episode started, but by the end I couldn't stop moving - just nervous energy I think. I had a really boring day at work as well, as there wasn't much work on really. Which is kind of a good thing at the moment.

I think my landlady's gone on holiday. Her car and toothbrush are gone and I know she's supposed to be going soon. Its just as well I didn't let the cat throw up on the video then. I think I will get an early night while it is quiet. And it is nice to get some peace and quiet, it does my head no end of good. Which is probably just as well, given that I've nearly run out of pills - didn't quite manage a pill free day today, sadly.

Virgin sent me a 5 pound voucher - which is not 25% of 40 quid. I checked their passengers charter on their website and it says if the trains are late so you arrive at your destination an hour or more late you are entitled to 25% of your ticket price. Also, if you have to wait at a station for an hour they'll provide you with free drinks. Which is very interesting. I'll wait to see how much I get for the journey up there, then I'll get another complaint form to complain about the complaint. Maybe it was because I used a different address they didn't know it was me, so are trying to fob me off, thinking I don't know the system. Well, they have another think coming!

Haven't updated for ages. What's been happening since then? I went up to Leeds for a long weekend, and it was really good to see all my friends. It was kind of scary at first as it was a strange Northern place with people whose accents I couldn't understand. But it was okay. The rows of terraced houses look really bad, and make it all look really dodgy, but it seems to be quite a cool place. And Stargate in Spanish, what can I say! Needless to say the trains were crap, and I left work at 5.30 and got to Leeds at 11.30 at night. Coming back took 6 hours as well. So I'll get 20 quid back off it, which is something.

I was the only person in my department last week, and to top it off I managed to get flu. It wasn't really bad, but worse than a bad cold. I felt crap, but I still had to go in and work form 8 till 6. I've now done 6 and a half hours extra since the start of July, and because our system's crap I don't get to see any of it. I might try for the sympathy vote though. So last weekend I spent lying on my bed watching Ewan McGregor. So it wasn't all bad! Not quite feeling better yet, but getting there. And not dreaming of work which is a big improvement.

I'm planning to work on the site this weekend. I might put it up before its done, because there's loads of stuff needs doing in the Bitz section, and because I'm moving servers and changing address I need to change things like guestbook, stats, webring, which of course isn't simple. I also want to go to STA Travel, I need to go to Tescos, and I want to play some computer games, as I haven't had the time for ages. And get Enigma out of the video shop, as it has Hywel on it.

Its worrying how being obssessed about Eastenders/Big Brother/football is considered normal but mention anything sci-fi (or even The Bill) and suddenly thats sad. Everyone at work seems to be getting married at the moment, which is quite sad too. Conversations in our office seem to involve houses or cars (the buying of). Both of which I've never done and have no intention of doing for a long time. So its not really a surprise that I don't really take part in them much. Don't think I'll have the energy for fencing tomorrow, which is kind of annoying because I miss it. But I do get to see The Kiss live. Not entirely certain its a good thing though!

Free Reg!

I'm now a fully qualified first aider! I just hope I never have to use any of it. Its going to be really shit going back to work tomorrow now. Especially as I went in on my way home to find out I've got loads of work to do. I'm going to have to go in early as well, to get it all done. I can't leave late as I'm off to Leeds for a slightly long weekend. And if I leave work on time and Virgin is on time (v unlikely, I know) I'll get there about 10pm. Thats 4 hours on the train! And I can't not go because I've bought the ticket and it cost a small fortune. Coming back will be interesting though, as most of the trains seem to require you to go through London and my ticket doesn't allow that, as its more expensive to do it that way.

I did get my photos back from Wimbledon and the London Trip though, which was good. I've even put them on my website already. I reckon it'll have about 100 pages when its done, which is a lot to do in one go. It is down a lot from the 200 pages the old site has. I am getting there, I can see the end in site. I've got some updating and spell-checking to do, but otherwise only one section has lots of things missing that need doing. I must get an early night tonight, as it'll be an early morning, a long day and probably a late night.